I didn’t mean to do it. I wish I had been more aware, but I wasn’t. I wish I had trusted him, but I didn’t. I thought he was going to do something else then what he did, what he wanted to do. Then it was over and I couldn’t get it back. I’m going to have to wait now for the next one and who knows when that will happen. It could be days, weeks even months.
Lets just hope I learned my lesson so I don’t blow it next time.
As I understand how things work, these moments are going to become even more rare. Almost extinct! That in and of itself is a tragedy. To go and miss it right during the moment, well that is a heart-break.
I do not want to ever again, miss that. Not ever, ever, ever. No. Next time I’ll be more aware of what is happening. I will trust him. And I will not lose that moment.